Risk

I'm having a hard time adjusting back into our old life after vacation. Leaving for holiday break with a salary dispute hanging and coming back to a less than ideal resolution has me uninspired at work. On top of that, I miss being with Asher. We spent three weeks straight together and every time we are together things are so much better. I hate not having weekends with him and I hate having conflicting schedules on the weekdays. I mean really...hate.

Since coming back, I noticed that at work I can't breathe the air (my nose is stuffed, I sneeze all day long). I'm back to clenching my jaw from stress and my stomach is twisty over deadlines and little administrative tasks that have to be done, now. I've had three days of headaches after three weeks of none. So I wonder...

What do I do with this feeling?

I feel like I could invest time into GraffRoots, sell with Asher, market his artwork online, set up a screen print operation to start producing shirts for him. Do something creative myself, maybe jump back into wedding planning.

I know I'm lucky to have a job, especially with the economy. And a dispute over a couple thousand dollars shouldn't make me want to throw away a lot-of-thousand dollars. But I can't help feeling like I need it, we need it. Shake this feeling off? Or begin to think seriously about taking a very big risk.