Tuesday, August 25, 2009
The first plays like this....
Asher is painting and I am tired so the kitties and I snuggle in to bed. Biggie humps the bed for a minute until I yell at him, then he snuggles under my arm at the edge of the bed. Mox (aka Little) snoozes on my belly and then snuggles in at the foot of the bed. She is jumpy and will wake up and jump off the bed at the slightest sound so she likes to be there perched on the end, closest to the door. Big will stay asleep and look at you with sleepy eyes like "Why are you waking me up?" no matter what the time. At some point Asher will come to bed but we won't really ever know it since he is up again before light. Sleep chases that guy. When I wake up, the kitties are always in their spots and I don't know if they move during the night.
The second, much more lovey-dovey night goes like this...
Asher starts falling asleep on the couch and I nudge him to go to bed. Big snuggles in under my arm. We lay there and chat, kiss each other bunches and get cozy. Then we hear Little..."mwow, mwow, mwow" from far away. She doesn't quite meow, she makes this exciting noise as she plays with her toys. We call her to us. "Mox! Little! Yo!" And we hear the noise get closer, her toy fling down the hallway. We see her by the doorway and invite her up. She rests on my belly and finally at the foot of my bed. And we are all so happy that I usually end up giggling a little and then I am asleep. And in the morning, we are usually all in our same spots, Little and her family.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
My little Dev took poloroids of me in lingerie and she made it fun and comfortable and when a picture turned out bad we just redid it. I even did a little pose like the one on the upper left but I had cute little undies on.
I kept the pictures when we broke up and they will just stay there in the drawer for me to go back to every once in awhile for a thrill. I think every girl should do this.
picture from White Lightning
Thursday, July 9, 2009
And today I found this Kate Spade vase on One Kings Lane:
And it matches two of the vases we got for our wedding: (I have the big pink one, and the small turquoise and now the little pink one. I can think of a ton of cute little arrangements with these beautiful vases...)
Monday, July 6, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
I've been asking for other people's prayers but when it came to me doing it, I felt like I wasn't doing it right. I had trouble quieting my mind and thinking of eloquent words to say to the sky. Struggling to censor anger and fear with a more pleasant request for leniency and strength.
Last night I listened to the program "Return to the Scene of the Crime" on This American Life. In a segment of the program, local author and sex columnist, Dan Savage, talks about how he grew up Catholic. He came out to his mother in his teens and ever since then he couldn't reconcile the Catholic church's beliefs (for instance, gays going to hell) with all the things he believed (that he was a good person).
His mother was the opposite, she could fit all her beliefs within the confines of the religion, even if her beliefs differed from the Pope's. He called her a good "American Catholic." She believed in birth control and gay rights and that women could be priests and they should all be able to marry.
Because she knew her son had fallen away from the religion she would say, "I know you don't pray, but keep me in your thoughts."
So last night, after hearing this, I kind of decided that to make it easier on myself, to make it less intimidating, I would just think about praying as "keeping you in my thoughts."
I've been praying all day.
I don't find it coincidental that I chose to listen to this podcast last night, just in time to ease my mind. I take it as a sign that God is always listening to me, even though I have trouble talking to him.
You can listen to the radio show HERE. Dan's segment starts at the 38 minute mark.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Friday, May 22, 2009
Last night, after it came out of the oven and sat for a minute I decided we couldn't do it. It was going to be our dinner because I had been busy baking since 6 and Asher was working. But like I said, it was too pretty to eat. So I made Asher a toasted cheese sandwich and off I went to bed. It was after midnight. Why did it take me so long to bake this one special pie? I cleaned out the refrigerator in the meantime. I think I threw away one entire shopping trip to Winco in rotten vegetables. I am ashamed we didn't eat them before they grew fur.
But back to my pretty pie. I used a new recipe for the crust, this one has sugar in it (and both butter and shortening)! And the whole reason I picked is was because of a line on the Smitten Kitchen recipe:
Certain pies, like, say, this Lattice-Topped Strawberry Rhubarb Pie, should be made every Memorial Day weekend, creating the most delicious bridge between rhubarb and strawberry season, during the most welcome break between winter and summer.
Isn't that perfect? I made it with rhubarb from Aunt Mirna mixed with some from Pike Place Market and strawberries from Safeway. They were kind of sour but this recipe has both white and brown sugar in it. I think we are in for a treat...when I decide it's okay to destroy it.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
I can't wait to do it again!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Well, I thought and I thought. And I thought it would be great to get some drawings to hang in vintage frames in our new bedroom.
I'm doing my skeleton key display so I went for one with keys. Surprise! Alicia has a skeleton key tattooed on her wrist, which she included in the drawing (I hope she tells me which one it is).
The other I ask for was the Brooklyn Bridge so Asher and I can always remember our lovely Brooklyn. She posted a teaser pic of it today and I can't wait to get them in the mail!
I will put up a picture after they are framed and hung. If you are interested, email her for one of your own (she does A-mazing drawings of bugs, flies, and squirrels too)!
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Couldn't figure out how to turn on my computer and actually announced it to the class before I found the blatantly obvious blue button.
Went the wrong direction to go on break and ended up at a dead end hallway.
Tried to exit out of the bathroom using the storage closet door.
And then my phone rang.
Seriously? Seems I need a bit of focus.
*I'm taking an Illustrator class at Bellevue College (no longer a community college, it's fancy now).
Who doesn't want to feel like that?
Read more...here. He (and his interpreter) are full of wit.
Friday, April 10, 2009
We went to the 5:30 show, picked up Thai food to go, and stepped back out into the night. Eight o'clock and it was still bright out. Spring is in the air.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Way to go, Biggie, you have made yourself another fan!
I am starting to get close to wishing for a baby for reals. It's scary because I say that I have always been ready for a baby but when Ness and Dev had theirs, it kind of scared me. The physical aspect of it as well as the emotional impact. The financial part isn't as scary because I know you always figure out a way to do it, though things are easier for us now so maybe I am just feeling more comfortable. Still, it scares me. The needs, the instincts, the sleepless nights.
But looking at this little baby yesterday, the craving came back. Her dad is black and her mom is white and we had watched them walk down the street while her belly grew and grew. Now the baby is about a year old. And I am unnaturally pre-occupied at looking at children like this. It sounds weird to say, even feels weird to think it, but I always look at them like, "maybe my kid will look like you?"
Last week I went to Ulta and there was a mom and daughter there and the girl was in her early teens and mixed race. They were picking out mineral foundations together, of all things.
"I think I'm more caramel?"
"No! You're darker than that!"
"No, ma, look...."
"Oh yeah, you are caramel."
I made a wish for a girl in that moment.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Ha! I wish that meant I was sitting on my rump shredding illegal documents. But no, it actually means I am getting my ass kicked by Jillian Michaels (Biggest Loser's hard body).
I have read so much about this exercise video and it kept popping up on a bunch of blogs I read. I ordered it from Amazon for like $8 after I read review after review about how much she kicks your boot-tay. I have to say, I am on level one and I can't do the whole thing all the way through. It is basic moves, jumping jacks and push ups, nothing fancy. I don't love the music or even her talking to me but I kind of feel like I can make myself do it for 20 minutes a day. And maybe after 30 days I will lose 20 L. B.'s like they say on the cover. Ha!
It used to be that when I focused on something, I became obsessed with it. I went so full force, got some consumed by it that soon it became less than thrilling. So...I'm going to start doing lots of different stuff: Weight Watchers, exercise videos, walking outside, riding bikes, taebo, whatevs. And maybe this time it will just be normal and not some freaky, obsessive, unsustainable choice. Just good old fashioned exercise. Like push ups and uh...jumping jacks.
Already, Biggie was a featured guest on the blog:
When Hank and Biggie met, Hank would shake from excitement. Big loved him right back. I have never seen an animal behave the way Bigs does. He simply cannot get enough of children. Being 15 pounds, he lives up to his name and frequently enjoys the company of a certain little 13 pounder.
He also loves up Josie when she is in town.
Go visit their blogs, you will see that my brother and sister have made some beautiful babies! I can't wait to have my own baby blog someday!
Sunday, March 29, 2009
I just finished making a blog for Asher (he hasn't seen it yet because he's at the market). Check it out, love it and subscribe so he can have a big old posse.
His goal is to put up new work as he makes it. Should be very cool to follow since I am always excited to see what he churns out.
Ready, Set, Go... GraffRoots
Sunday, March 22, 2009
It was a bit nerve-wracking because we weren't really prepared for what they would ask us, what would happen after the door shut behind us.
But sitting in the waiting room all around were families from different countries: Nepal, Africa, China, South America, the islands. There were little babies running their parents in circles and up and down stairs. Little one and two year olds who had just learned to use their legs. The cutest, chubbiest little babies of mixed heritage, half American and half from somewhere else in this big world. I looked at Asher and wondered who we might create, what they might look like, who they might choose to marry and create a child with. It makes the world feel very small and connected.
I have always wondered how it happened that a Seattle girl and a St. Lucian man would meet by chance or fate in a friend's apartment in Brooklyn. Who would wake up in a different apartment in Philly two days later, and completely in love.
We stayed at Taylor's apartment in Philly and Taylor had a world map printed on his shower curtain. I remember standing naked in front of it in the humid, sticky summer air. Drawing my hand from St. Lucia to New York, Seattle to New York. Amazed.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
I thought it was so easy. I got cocky. I figured, I had changed my pizza delivery ordering, 2% mocha drinking ways so the weight was just gonna slid off, right? Nope.
I ordered this salad at California Pizza Kitchen and didn't check the stats and the honey dijon vinegarette had more calories than the blue cheese I had sacraficed! I will never eat without checking the stats again. I also didn't eat as many veggies and fruits as the week before and I ate out. A lot.
So next week I expect greatness, I have learned my lesson. Hey there Goal, don't worry, I didn't forget about you. I will make it up to you next week.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
I didn't even write down her name.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Tonight I am taking Asher to look at the couch at Macy's and I have my fingers crossed that he will like it but I ask...what happens if he doesn't?
We don't have drastically different taste but he will always sacrifice style for comfort. Not that the couch isn't comfortable but when faced with a sleek couch and some cushy, fluffy, dual recliner tv-watching couch, he might put up a bit of a fuss. I am thinking, it might be okay to ignore him in this case.
Suffer for Style - by loveplusmarriage on Polyvore.com
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Here are a few things that started to make it clear that a lifestyle change was in order:
I joked about getting the Pizza Hut deal of 2 pizzas, cheese sticks and chocolate sticks. Then, on Valentine's Day, we actually ordered it. Shame, shame.
Asher brings me home a new bread pudding flavor every day he works at the market. We split it (now) but I am sure these are terribly bad for you. I looked up a recipe and it contains massive amounts of cream and butter. Not to mention chocolate.
Daily I set in my mind like, "Today is the day to watch what I eat" but I have to take some action to make it actually be THE DAY. Ya know?
I talk really bad to myself and my depression is looming. Is that any way to live as a newlywed?
My body is not well and I can feel it. My knees hurt, my feet hurt, I have no stamina when I exercise. I generally love to exercise and I am not getting any joy from it right now.
I want to have a baby and want to be as healthy as I can be for it. And I want to be feeling HOT while I'm making that baby. It's a great motivator isn't it Dev?
SO here goes...they say you generally lose two pounds a week if you are losing weight in a healthy manner. I will report back next Thursday.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
RUG LOVE - by loveplusmarriage on Polyvore.com
Okay...I'm note sure what your reactions will be but I am utterly in love with this rug. It is crazy and colorful and oh so charming. I think it adds some of that "kooky-ness" that seems like my style. It jazzes up the couch and chair. Plus there is some pink in there but maybe not so much that it scares Asher? I could point out that our "couch" now is kind of pink and he's been living with that for a few years. I have read tons of reviews of this sofa and they are overwhelmingly positive. Five out of five stars on Macy's and numerous blogs and readers rate it the best mid-century sofa - even compared to higher priced models. The obsession is fully formed at this point. Oh the rug...do you hate it?
Friday, February 13, 2009
Don't you just want to lounge in it naked? Is it just me? Is the baby blue ultra suede going to my head? Does one have to pay rent (cough, cough, Ness)? This chair fits all my requirements. Lovely color. Lovely texture. Pin-tucks. Odd shape. Now I have to try to forget is exists and costs $2700. Thanks. Thanks a bunch.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Living Room Macys - by loveplusmarriage on Polyvore.com
I really love the tufted backs. Can you tell? But I fell head over heels when I saw Gwen Stefani's office in Domino magazine. She has a bunch of baby blue slipper chairs that are just perfect. This pink one from Urban Outfitters is close but the pink may just be too much for Asher to take. And depending on how long we live on Pelly Street, the clash factor is high with red walls.
I just sat, layed and rolled on this couch today at Macy's. It is on sale through February. I would probably get it in their silver/grey color or a beige brown for neutral's sake.
Please tell me what you think. I am new to grown-up decorating so I'm not sure what my taste is. These are just items that jumped out to me cause I liked 'em.